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Tuesday, July 20th, 2004
7:30 am - you asked about compassion/dispassion
Compassion is natural in relations with others. But before spending too much time on it, and if you are ready, why not inspect the whole matter in a much deeper way.

When you have compassion for another, a big assumption has already been made. You are assuming that there is someone else that is (different from) not you. You have assumed you are somebody or something or you wouldn’t be cognizing someone or something “else”. Before you go about trying to correct or help the apparent others, it is wise to see if there really are any others and who it is that is assuming such a thing. In order to know if there are any others you should first see who it is that cognizes them.

Who sees the others? This seems like such a remedial question, yet to honestly and sincerely ask it could change your whole outlook to the point of radical joy. Understanding the truth of your own existence will clear up the question of how to treat others.

If you inspect the conceiving of those others, who perhaps need your compassion, you may come to the understanding that there are no others unless you imagine them.

Consider your dream state. You may have deep compassion for the others in your dreams, and go about all kinds of maneuvering to help them out, yet upon waking you see the whole thing was a bunch of mind fluff. Not only were the others unreal, but yourself as a dream character was unreal. Is it ultimately important to spend time nursing phantoms? Is dispassion called for?


Teachings about dispassion toward the world and others are meant to turn your attention inward toward the source of all arising phenomena. The whole notion of others depends on who you are taking yourself to be. If you are an ant, the others will appear to be ants. If you are a dream character of some kind, the others will appear accordingly. Instead of looking outward towards the others, try looking at yourself. If it is obvious you are not an ant or a dream character, what makes you think you are a human being? Is a human body your real identity? When attention is turned inward toward the essence of your own existence it is possible to discover the wonderful truth of who you really are. Dispassion towards what seems to be outside of you is simply a tool to quiet the mind and thus wake up to what is real about yourself and others.

Dispassion gets interesting when it is directed at your own assumed identity. The real dispassion should be toward your own persona because all the “others” stem from that initial assumption. Instead of assuming an identity as a human being and then trying to be compassionate toward the apparently human others, it is more wise to question your own identity.

When you deeply and thoroughly look at your self, where do you find your self? If you find yourself objectively, can it really be you? To be dispassionate toward what you have wrongly taken to be yourself will allow you great clarity and freedom. When there are no notions about yourself and others, what remains? To find this out for yourself is liberation.

Once found, it is so enjoyable that no dispassion is needed! When you know who you really are, it is clear that there is only one Self with no others. If there appear to be others they are yourself. From this point of view where is the need for compassion?
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Wednesday, November 19th, 2003
8:31 pm - Self Knowledge
Master Nome, (cee's beloved teacher)
timeless shapeless consciousness
has penned the perennial wisdom of Being
in a new book "SELF KNOWLEDGE"
available at http://www.satramana.org/html/self_knowledge.htm

REALLY,
it is all you need to know,
THE (your) SELF.



with love and all the help you need,
cee

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Tuesday, July 22nd, 2003
4:50 am
at some point the body became inert
like a lamp post
just this enormous radiation
certainly not from it
more like through it
in spite of it, outshining it
and everything

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Sunday, June 22nd, 2003
7:18 pm
*
*
*
one thought, one heartbeat, one foot
follows the next
yet
a ripple never occurs
in your perfect peace
*
*
*

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Friday, June 20th, 2003
8:39 pm
this dream
can be an open door
out of ALL dreaming
just reverse your outlook
look into the origin
of the character you assume

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Friday, May 9th, 2003
5:20 pm
*
*
*
some people in every era
really want to understand
most want to be comfortable and consoled
some will challenge their own beliefs
most won't
*
but in every era of (apparent) human history
there is at least one enlightened being
he/she/it may speak or remain silent
nonetheless
he/she/it is the OPEN DOOR to existence itself
*
*
*

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Thursday, May 1st, 2003
3:04 am - ART
"
used to make a lot of art
painted myself into a corner!
*
the highest art -
discovering there is no artist
"

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Monday, April 28th, 2003
9:49 pm
*
throw in the towel
*
give up the ghost
*
abandon the persona
*
die while alive
*

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9:42 pm
*
utter complete peace
AND (equals)
extreme awareness
*
exactly aware of every minute detail AS oneself
every cell pulsing with life into (as) every other cell
subject is object
environment IS oneself
no difference anywhere
who hears this silence?
who can fathom this profound joy?

*
utter complete peace
AND (equals)
extreme awareness
*

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Sunday, April 20th, 2003
6:21 pm
play pass it's a gas
i alone exists
up down all around
i alone exits
live dead in yer head
i alone exists
in out all about
i alone exists

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Tuesday, March 11th, 2003
8:18 am
*
*
*
some modern teachers give much validity
to the world
like you are supposed
to realize the Absolute and then kind of
reemerge in the world more radiant and loving
and save all sentient beings. or be more exactly
here (meaning more here as a human being in a world)
or be here now (making what appears “now” real)

do you think that “awakening from all fixed points of view”
has a point from which to view from?
humanness is a point of view.

the world IS an illusion. (ancient scriptures were
not just kidding or trying to make hell for spiritual seekers)
find the truth in that statement
and THEN see if you can come back to a world
and love and save everybody

as to how an awakened being is supposed to act---
some awakened ones appear loving, some don’t
if they are really awake –there is NO identity
how they appear to "others" has nothing to do with them

how can something formless and absolute
manifest in ANY particular way
in an apparent world of form?

there is only ONE dreamer
only one wakes
the only enlightenment there is
is your own

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Monday, March 10th, 2003
9:33 pm
*
*
was talking to awesboss about lucid dreaming
so we decide in this dream to meet tonight in that
dream and we would buy some dream incense just
like these two dream characters had just bought
some dream incense

in the dream you could
see the incense all colors and sizes
(there was one huge stick about the size of a baseball bat)
feel the fluffy incense with dream fingers
the fragrance was amazing even though
there are no real eyes or ears or nose
to actually perceive any thing
*
both the day dream and the night dream (seem to)
occur in the now—fully equipped with corresponding
time and space
there is exactly NO difference between the two
*
so who is experiencing the dream(s)?
sense organs couldn’t possibly be the lens of experiencing
as they are not real in either dream
how could the fragrance of incense be perceived
-when dream senses have no power of themselves to function?
is there some individual entity behind these dream characters
with dream senses that is perceiving dream objects?
who gives validity to the dream?
and where exactly would that perceiving entity be?
inside a dream body?

there is no individual perceiver or experiencer to be found anywhere
which gives exactly no (objective) validity to
the objects of perception

sweet and pungent.

awesboss seemed to have the same experience.

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9:29 pm
[Bad username: was talking to awesboss about lucid dreaming so we decide in this dream to meet tonight in that dream and we would buy some dream incense just like these two dream characters had just bought some dream incense in the dream you could see the incense all colors and sizes (there was one huge stick about the size of a baseball bat) feel the fluffy incense with dream fingers the fragrance was amazing even though there are no real eyes or ears or nose to actually perceive any thing * both the day dream and the night dream (seem to) occur in the now—fully equipped with corresponding time and space there is exactly NO difference between the two * so who is experiencing the dream(s)? sense organs couldn’t possibly be the lens of experiencing as they are not real in either dream how could the fragrance of incense be perceived -when dream senses have no power of themselves to function? is there some individual entity behind these dream characters with dream senses that is perceiving dream objects? who gives validity to the dream? and where exactly would that perceiving entity be? inside a dream body? there is no individual perceiver or experiencer to be found anywhere which gives exactly no (objective) validity to the objects of perception sweet and pungent. awesboss seemed to have the same experience. ]

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Saturday, March 8th, 2003
8:04 pm
*
nonperception of objects
*

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Friday, March 7th, 2003
8:20 pm
*


having fallen into the
well of peace
ubiquitous
effulgent
deep bright silence
needless to say i don’t go out anymore
swooning in bliss
in fact it is impossible
as all of the universes have fallen in (with) me
and dissolved

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Tuesday, March 4th, 2003
7:31 pm
*


drove by a billboard today
for a movie i guess
it said:
"The Only Way out is through the Core"
the words ring true in a spiritual sense.
because if you want out of the round of births and deaths
there is only
one way
out.
Do you think that people who commit suicide actually get out?
not a chance.
physical existence occurs in mind.
if someone puts an end to their apparent physical form
it doesn't end much.
mind goes on
dreaming goes on
another body, another world, another drama
bodies worlds and dramas occur for as long as
MIND MAKES THEM.
*


"The Only Way out is through the Core"
what is "core"?
the best definition the dictionary comes up with is:
"the basic or most important part; the essence"
so if someone wants out
the only way out for that someone is
for that someone to
find the core.
the core of what?
the core of that someone.
there is no mind at the core.
*
*
if you want out
*
find your own core



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Monday, March 3rd, 2003
5:45 pm
*
understanding the world to be illusory
your whole life a dream
all your loved ones phantoms
your own persona a joke
all this
may seem to make everything
worthless or futile.
but exactly the opposite is true!
*
if a dream
or a lifetime
or loved ones seem to occur
it is of the greatest value
and wonderful indeed
*
for All are (is) the Perfect Self


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Sunday, March 2nd, 2003
1:20 pm
*
finally found my place
where there is no such thing as
"my" or "place"
utter dissolution
*
no one sees me
i experience no other
*

funny thing is
the apparent dissolution
was of nothing
that ever really was
*

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Friday, February 28th, 2003
8:40 pm
just undrstand this simple thing:

everything is for (from) I

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Thursday, February 27th, 2003
8:21 pm - rusty fingers moving
deep
*
deep well of Being
fathomless Deepness
*
the core of Existence
*
"core" -- "existence"
what possible meaning could these words have?

*
it's difficult to come out here --to the dream.
and speak words
fingers punching keys (HA! HA!)
*
like words actually stand for something!
*
hermits, mystics, sages...
who gleens their wisdom?
*
we (all/I)
always saying the same thing
*
"look inside yourself"
*

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